by Alexandra

On the last day of the year, it’s protocol to make something delicious.

I did.

Eggs, fried in butter. Topped with the sharpest cheddar cheese you could imagine, so hot and bubbly that it literally drips off the spatula onto the pan and just sizzles. It’s fried cheese.

These eggs, they slide onto the plate so easily it sends shivers up my spine. Why do they slide so easily? Yikes — food porn.

Just a single twist of black pepper. Upon slicing into them, egg yolk oozes out. Salty, rich, perfect. So perfect, it almost sickens me.

So maybe they’re just eggs, but you don’t know perfection until you’ve tried this. Complete and utter bliss, you can only wish that you’d got balls enough to behold this stuff. This is man meat, I tell you. It’s nothing for the faint of heart, literally. Your heart might give out and you might faint.

Against cheese, you’ll never win. Throw out those resolutions for being thin because this my friends, is the reason for the season.

All up close and personal.

I found this tea in the kitchen cabinet. To be honest, I didn’t even know it existed, but I think it’s the cutest thing ever! Instead of just Earl Grey Tea, there’s Lady Grey Tea? Eeek! Tea = love.

My favorite tea has a wife. Excellent.

Yesterday I watched Julie & Julia for the sixth time again and it re-kindled my love for both French people and for food. Julia Childs is probably my favorite person ever. She’s so carefree and just likes to have fun. More so, she’s a strong woman, which is an extremely respectable quality in my books. Girl Power! Whoo!!! Okay, I’ll just go back to the nineties, sorry.

On that note, it’s the last day of 2011. It seems crazy to me; this year literally flew by. Seriously, people. It had wings! (Oh Lordy, i really have not yet had enough caffeine. Please bear with me)

My point is, it’s hard to believe that 2011 is already over. I can’t even count the ways in which I’ve changed this year (for the better, I think) and I’m actually excited, for once, to see what this year will bring.

One thing I think I need to do more of is facing my fears. I was thinking about posting some things (specifics) that I want to work on during this new year but I chickened out. People I know read this and it makes me uneasy sharing something even slightly deep with them. I’m kind of a “personal person” which is strange considering that I have a blog. I don’t really understand why I’d be okay with rambling about my thoughts and personal stuff to a bunch of people I don’t know but I can’t bring myself to share myself with people I do know, not even my church group! I think I am afraid of making a fool out of myself or getting hurt and then having to face those people again, which is basically facing fear. When I’m hurt by someone or I feel vulnerable, it makes it harder for me to “keep it together.” But I don’t have to keep it together all the time. Sometimes, I’m a mess! I’m afraid of exposing that side of myself. The more I think about it, that is a stupid outlook on life.

At my church, the pastor talks a lot about the importance of community. There’s a bible verse that says “a cord of three strands is not easily broken.” It really struck with me and I’ve been thinking about it a lot.

So, here I come, 2012. Arms open and hopefully, heart open too. It’s time to be honest with myself and honest with others. No more little shy, cooped up, afraid girl. I’m not a little kid anymore (seriously, I feel like I’m twelve sometimes) and it’s time for me to start acting like it!

Happy New Year!